Find yourself afraid you will be disappointed by God?
Good news! As a result of believing in Jesus, His blood cleansing us from all sin, once for all- qualifying us to be the Temple of the Spirit of God ( as God cannot dwell in a temple that has not been cleansed by blood, and God cannot remain in a temple (us) unless the blood sacrifice was able to cover all sin- once and for all- as Jesus' did- otherwise, God Spirit would have to leave us every time we sinned, every wrong motive, thought, attitude, etc).
But God never has to cut off fellowship with us. Why? Because of Jesus' once for all sacrifice, we are given the GIFT of Right Standing before God, it is a gift, was not and cannot be earned by right doing, only right believing, which is belief in Jesus having made us right (righteous) before God. As a result of our belief in Jesus, God Himself takes up residency within us (Eph. 1:13), and it's for a purpose.
That purpose is to give us an inner knowing of several things (here is a short-list):
1. That we're loved by Him (Romans 5:5)
2. To give us Hope (Romans 5:5)
3. To write His law on our hearts / Give us the inner knowing of right and wrong, aka: being led by His Spirit in all things ( Hebrews 8: 8-13)
4. He leads us into all Truth / we know Truth when we hear it (John 16: 13)
As a result of believing in Jesus, we access the forgiveness of God, for all sin, once for all- qualifying us to be the Temple of the Spirit of God (1 Cor. 6: 19)- God takes up residency within us, the believer, and by His Spirit, He pours out His Love within us, giving us an inner knowing we are loved by Him, which, gives us Hope, and Hope Does Not Disappoint us!
The biblical definition for hope: A confident expectation of good
Romans 5: 5
And hope (confident expectation of Good) does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit (which is God's Spirit) whom He has given us.
Encouragment: Refuse condemnation, the feelings of guilt, shame, etc., rather, insist on believing what Jesus has done for you- made you righteous (right before God), and He's done this as a gift to you- Jesus was sent and came to us as a gift from God - out of His love for you.
As a result of knowing you're right before God, knowing that He did this out of His love for you, you now have a confident expectation of ONLY good things for you and your loved ones.
Refuse to be afraid, rather, know that God is always setting you up for His best, and though things may not unfold as you see them, it doesn't mean that God is going to let you down - trust Him, that He is bringing what it is that you need / desire, in His way- which is THE best way for you!
*Meditate - roll over and over in your mind, as you picture God holding you, "God loves me..."
Choose to believe and receive, and watch how you and situations transform- effortlessly!